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"Substitute" (ヒトガワリ Hitogawari[?]) is the sixth track on the album Second Act (第二幕).
Background[]
This song may be about a girl in the pain of trying to heal from a broken heart, and the desire for her to be loved in the way she wishes for. It tells about her desperation for a substitute to fill her wound, an impossible kind of love that keeps her from being truly happy in her relationship.
There's another theory that speaks about the girl being in an abusive relationship for long enough to be helpless, and addicted to rough love, for the lyrics "Please leave me bleeding lovesick for the sickest sort of love" and more.
Lyrics[]
寄り添ってただそばにいて
時計の針が進んでゆく
温かなその幸せを
わたしの身体が受けつけない
ああ
ああ 空の空の空に空いた穴のよう
空の身体脆いはずの心は
古傷だらけの歪な形
歪んでいるのです
血だらけの愛だけをください
不安で粉々に割れそうで
だから切ないよ
やさしくてだからほんとは
いつまでも続いて欲しい
ささやかなこの幸せを
わたしの心は受け容れない
ひねくれているのです
仕方がないのです
我慢して我慢して
別人のような傷跡だらけです
血まみれの口づけをください
壊れたヒトガワリが欲しいの
血だらけの愛だけをください
不安でバラバラに砕けそう
だから寂しいよ ずっと
yorisotte tada soba ni ite
tokei no hari ga susunde yuku
atataka na sono shiawase o
watashi no karada ga uketsukenai
aa
kara no kara no sora ni aita ana no yō
kara no karada moroi hazu no kokoro wa
furukizu darake no ibitsu na katachi
yugande iru no desu
chi darake no ai dake o kudasai
fuan de konagona ni waresō de
dakara setsunai yo
yasashikute dakara honto wa
itsumademo tsuzuite hoshii
sasayaka na kono shiawase o
watashi no kokoro wa ukeirenai
hinekurete iru no desu
shikata ga nai no desu
gaman shite gaman shite
betsujin no yō na kizuato darake desu
chi mamire no kuchizuke o kudasai
kowareta hitogawari ga hoshii no
chi darake no ai dake o kudasai
fuan de barabara ni kudakesō
dakara samishii yo zutto
Side by side we lie, happy in each other's grasp
Tending our together, never ever ticking hands
Yet my mending heart, safely placed inside your arms
Shakes and says it can't accept that gentle happiness
Ah..
Ah, like a vacant sky recovered to be covered with a hole
Both my defenseless core and empty form resemble such an air
Where they're contorted and distorted, cut with cuts that never close
Staring back at me
Please leave me bleeding lovesick for the sickest sort of love
On edge I bet, I bet "enough" can't be enough to hold me up
No, it just keeps me hurting...
Still, your gentle ways fill my heart and make me wish
We could stay like this for forever and a day
All the while my heart, set to set intent apart
Panics and forbids that bit of modest happiness
Hideously twisting with a feeling
Can't ignore the horrors that I've seen
Bandage and manage, yeah I'm trying
But the cuts stick to my skin time after time, are they even mine...?
Please only loan me kisses if your lips are dressed in red
I need a break, a breaking substitute to live instead
Please leave me bleeding lovesick for the sickest sort of love
That kind of kind, I know it shows how broken I've become
Yes, it's why I'll be lonely for life...
English translation by Jess Proofreading by Chron & Tackymyn
Discography[]
This song was featured on the following albums:
External Links[]
- Youtube Broadcast - Off-vocal
- YouTube Broadcast (official, uploaded by Kikuo)
- YouTube Broadcast (official, uploaded by Hanatan)
- NicoNico Broadcast